I don’t have the words. I mean, there are words I could list, guess. But they don’t portray the feeling of being utterly dumbfounded and wounded.
Here’s some. The rest are… unspeakable.
Shock. Nausea. Bile duct. Wasted. Surprised. Flabbergasted. Betrayed. Vomit. Bamboozled. Used. Abused. Crushed. Punished. Jimmy. Arousal. Empty. Hollow. Despondent. Angry. Tired. Exhausted. Drained.